:+:~XiAo_LoNg~:+:
DoN't Be fOoLeD bY Me~
DoN't bE FooLeD bY tHe MaSk i WeAr~
fOr i WeAr a MaSk~
i WeAr a ThOuSaNd MaSks~
MaSks tHaT i'M aFrAid To TaKe oFF~
aNd NoNe oF tHeM iS Me~
PreTeNdiNg iS aN aRt ThAt iS SeCoNd NaTuRe oF mE~
BuT DoN't bE fOoLeD~
i GiVe tHe iMpReSsiOn tHaT i'M SeCuRe~
ThAt aLL iS SuNNy aNd UnRuffLeD WiTh mE~
WiThiN As WeLL aS WiThoUt~
tHat CoNfiDeNcE iS mY NaMe aNd cOoLnEsS iS My GaMe~
tHaT ThE WaTeRs ArE CaLm~
aNd i'M iN CoMmAnD~
aNd i neEd nO OnE~
bUt dOn'T BeLiEvE iT...........
pLeAsE~ DoN't~
i idLy cHaTTeR wiTh yOu iN ThE SuAvE ToNes oF SuRfAcE TaLks~
i TeLL yOu EvErYthiNg tHaT's ReaLLy nOthiNg~
nOthiNg oF wHaT's CryiNg wiThiN mE~
sO, wHen i'M GoiNg tHrOuGh mY RoUtiNe~
DoN't bE FoOleD bY WhAt i'M SaYiNg~
pLeAsE LiStEn CaReFuLLy aNd TrY tO HeAr wHaT i'M noT SaYiNg~
WhAt i'D Be AbLe To sAy~
WhAt, FoR SuRviVaL, i NeEd tO SaY BuT i CaN't~
i DisLiKeD tHe HiDiNg~
HoNeStLy~
i DisLiKeD ThE SuPeRfiCiaL PhOny GaMeS i'M pLaYiNg~
Whoaaaa~ as friendly as the dengue site can be, the “members” site ain’t much friendly~ each time I said Hi to them, or greet them Morning/Afternoon, they would just… stare… @__@ especially room 30… gosh… he even complaint on the 2nd time I went in to greet him on alternate days~ that isn’t nice?! Is it? Yea~ it’s so not nice… =(
But however… I think I could understand… imagine… kay? Imagine… Nigel, you’re infected with HIV~ your thighs rotting… you’re bed bound, and you’ve.. say… 3 tubes coming from your body… you’ve got a stoma bag attached to your abdominal area… and you have……………………………………………………………………. Zzz…
YUCK!!!!! Definitely I wouldn’t wanna live anymore.. I’d rather die than have those on my body… CORRECTION!!! I’d rather die to have any ONE of those on me… damn~ those people are strong… @__@ don’t they feel like dying? No no no, please don’t feel like dying~ geex~ I would go depressed talking to you people too.. T.T gosh… real strong if they can choose to live on like this~
But well… I’m certainly not giving up~ jus look at the consultant~ Man~~~ everyone responded to him~ the consultant~ gosh… he deserves to be in that position~ he’s so… extremely caring~ and very knowledgeable too~ it’s definitely cool to have him around~
But man~ I really am having a hard time talking to them… especially room 30… especially him~ after getting complaints from him directly that I keep entering and that its annoying, I’ve never really entered to that particular room again till the CI asked me to… Dressing~ his dressing~ Gore~~ Disgusting… I really cannot imagine even a centimeter of that in between my legs… it’ll be sooo… annoying, irritating, and everything~ its soo… yuckie~!! Yuck!! Oh gosh… I don know if it’s sympathy or what… but… I really do want to help him… but with him groaning every minute we touched him? Gosh.. I give up~
He’s so difficult!!! Oh but.. yes.. geex… I’m impressed with the CI too on this… she’s so patient with him~ soooo really patient… *If only my mum’s like her~* at that particular moment, with each time he groans… with each time more he groaned, he pisses me off… *Man~ we’re here to help you!!! Can’t you help us to help you too?!?!* or did he not realize we are helping?? =.= but oh well… really… I wouldn’t want enter that room. again… lols~ I’ve left the vital sign taking all to Felma~ particularly that room.. hehe… *I’m so mean~~* (Yes yes I know~ >.<)
But really… if I were to be attached to the “members” site instead of to the dengue site, I would probably have different ideas and 2nd thoughts, on whether to really want to choose CDC or not… they’re really so hard to work with~ if at the “members” site, the only thing I would love, will be left with the nurses I’m working with, the doctors to joke with and to know more bio-ly, and the CI to guide us around… which meant, one main factor lesser to enjoy… the patients~ which is really more than what all working as a nurse is about… geex~~ do the students know how much fun it is to work at the dengue site??
No no no… gosh I don want to work with the “members”~ maybe helping out? Yea, maybe~ but gosh… I love the dengue site more… no biasness~ but the “members” are so really hard to work with… really… T.T
@__@ wait till the CI sees this… wonder if she’d scream at me…
NYP YEAR 2
Nursing Student
Nigel Chua
Attachments????? You mean attachments in CDC???? Man I love them!!!!!! Gosh~ I seriously seriously seriously love them!!! Staff Nurses here are all so friendly, Patients in my site (Dengue site) are ALL so nice to talk to~~~ and I meant all, all of them… they’re all so easy to be approached to!!! Oh gosh~ if only my mum could stop saying things like “get outta there asap when you finished work”, “BATHE NIGEL BATHE!!! NOW!!! IMMEDIATELY!!!!” Darn~ she’s so not sure how clean the procedures are in the hospital~ oh well.. technically, I don’t expect her to be, her education level proves it~ *that’s mean* (I know that) =P
But ohh…. I really do love my attachments… staff nurses there are all so…. Easy going!!! Awwww~ this is all so different from the attachments I’ve been to the last time… all so… strict~ I remembered some sentences they’ve said~~~
“Oh no, did you really do that in that way!?!”
“Nigel? Oh no… not him please…”
“Does he really knows where to put those stuff?”
“Are you sure Nigel knows anything more than talking??”
Man~ I do things okay?!?! Didn’t you realize?? =P hehe… well.. I made them up~ they’re not true… =P hehe… its my diary anyways~ heheeee…. But seriously… its been so strict in the other hospital settings~ well… at least I know that I didn’t really talk that much in other hospital than here… especially to staff nurses… I’ve never talked to them so much than in CDC~ all that I’ve done talking to them in other hospitals are “Thank you”, “Sure” and “Sorry”~ that’s all~ we’ve never went into more detailed stuffs like where’re you from~ where am I from~ what you like~ what I like~ kinda thing… but gosh… they’re really friendly… the CDCs ones~ hehe… Well~ at least compared to the other hospitals, I know where almost all staff nurses in CDCs are from~ hehe… Felma~ Ther-re-sa (shit~ how to spell that?!) Mother Teresa~ but hers with H… so… Theresa~ yea~ guess so… oops… guess I’ll make sure tomorrow~ hehe… there is a “sha sha” too… oh gosh~~ basically… all of them are friendly… all of them~~ =D
And now, to the CI~ geeexxx~~ she’s very unique~ very different from other CIs in the other wards~ basically… she’s so specific to the extend that its scaring me… Spoon Feeding~ SERIOUSLY spoon feeding~~ “After the reports taking, you should do this, do that do this do that”, “Must come 10mins before and do this do that do this do that”… WOOT!!!! Whoa~ the other CIs don’t give THAT specific instructions?! They gave SO NOT specific instructions… So, Not Specific~ but my point is… She’s sooo… unique~ The CDC one.. yea~ =P Specific~ the way I like it… rather than beating around the bush and end up you figuring what to do next after she says that says this~~ hehe… but gosh… one thing more in particular to be afraid of other than been too specific…
her… intimidating… huge… eyes… @__@
very scary… I couldn’t look into them for more than 2 sec… hairs would stand~ chills would run my spine~ its like… like… like when she called me, like every single time she called me, and used those eyes to look at me… and when… when I jus stared back into hers… it seemed that everything went wrong… like as if I’ve did something horribly horribly wrong… but each time she said things like, “can you do this?”, “can you do that?” like as simple as, “Can you go break on the 2nd hour?”, “Can you do the parameters instead of the staff nurses doing?” gosh I felt so really relieve… at least I know that nothing’s been done wrong~ @__@ *fffffeeeeaaarrrrrr* seriously… oh my gosh really… her intimidating eyes…
lets jus say, I’m a coward, with no confidence at all about things I’m doing~ yea~ that probably is… it always is~ maybe there’s nothing wrong with her eyes… its me.. @__@ geex~~ yea~ its really me… in fact, I remembered the last time, in SGH, there’s this CI named… errrr… wad’s her name? CI what… errr… can't remember… but she did say that I need to have more self confidence~ ya, maybe its really me… I don’t see other students afraid of her though~ only me… ya… I’m the problem… T.T *I’m still scared of her~*
But seriously… I do love her specific instructions~ it really gives me a very good lead to be a extraordinary great staff nurse in future~ like for example, what I really should do in making rounds~ well… I’m very darn sure that I’m not sure at all in the last few attachments until I came here… hehe… although ya, its gonna be different on things to look out for in different attachments~ for this? Plugs on = Swollen areas to look out on = Pain~~~ things as such~ its really cool~ at least with her around, I do know what to be done, what to look out for… except that I still do fear her, yea, I love her presence~ if only she could look at somewhere else while talking to me… OH YES~!!!! THAT’S IT!!!! No wonder I jus loved her talking with us in groups~ hehe… now all that made sense… hehe… =P cuz she usually looked at George *the incredibly smart fellow* or someone who replies to her question when she talks~ hehe… oh gosh… so lucky not to be as smart~ =P now, here’s a point on how stupidity helps~ hahas!! =D
The patients~ hehe… the dengue site… awww… mannnn… regardless whether they are sick or not… they’re all so nice people to talk to… are they always nice? Are they only nice to student nurses? Are they all the same, as easy to talk to as like for now???? If that’s the case~ gosh.. they rock!!! *Well~ that is if I’m a student and remain as one~ I wonder if things would change when I becomes a staff nurse* Reading the case notes for their history??? RUBBISH!! Crap~ talking to them are so much more easier to get informations!!! Hahas~ mannn~ really!! Never been simpler in other hospitals~ never simpler… never~
Oh yes the doctors!!!! Gosh!! I’ve never talked so much to doctors at all compared to other doctors in the other hospitals!! Hahas!! Geexxxx!! They’re all so funny too!! Especially the curly hair macdonald like asian doctor~ hahas!! Each time he talks, each time a sentence spurts from his lips~ a least of an unintentional giggle from me would occur~ hahas~ he’s jus so funny!! and the one botak~ hehe… mohammad something~ gosh I’m so bad in names… he’s very friendly too… regardless how simple minded questions we asked, he would also entertain us with answers~ consultant~ yea, the consultant… although I wouldn’t think it’s a good idea to ask him questions, cuz It’ll definitely reflects my stupidity, but he’s soooo… caring~~ the way he picks up topic to talk about to patients… its really a skill I should learn… trust~ yes… that earns those patients trust very easily…
Gosh~ man I love my ward~ why can't I be attached here for a longer time????
If only CDC’s jus a few steps away from TTSH~
If only CDC had a free shuttle bus that comes to and fro the mrt~
If only CDC’s a few stops away from Sembawang~
If only there’s a canteen nearby CDC~ *More than 5mins walk’s long to me @__@* (lazy bum, I know T.T)
If only my mum would get a positive idea on it~
Defintely~ CDCs gonna be my choice~
But nahhhx~ definitely not too~ its so farrr~ its so tiring to jus get to there~
Ahhh~ but each time I gets there, I’m glad my working time had started~
NYP YEAR 2
Nursing Student
Nigel Chua