Gosh~~ just one day... it jus takes me one day to go hopelessly insane~ I can't believe it, I can't believe it at all!!! to get myself fall so badly deeply into her heart~ I felt like I’ve broken both my legs for falling so hard~ am I ever going to be able to stand up again? Will she really be the one to hold on to my heart till old age???? i'm going ridiculously crazy... the silliest creature i've ever met... i've been doing so many mad stuffs~ here's so much about been such a huge paranoid~!!!
My parents... if i remembered... they went to china for 2 whole weeks... and sure, define parents.. Most wud agree to "Angels of our lives, Guardians to our future, Protector from all devils, and they're the ones who loved us most" right? so... what if i say... those times when they went to china for 2 weeks... i almost tot i became the most happiest person in the whole wide world?? for i had the whole computer to myself without any naggings from parental ship at all~!!! gosh~ the computer is on for the whole 2 weeks wif intervals of me, my sis and my bro using each turn overnight... whole 2 weeks, they're not missed one bit!!! and they're supposed to be angels, guardians... and protectors...
And this fellow i've knew? this... this ewwww creature~??!?!! she jus said "ya la ya la" yesterday, sent hints of loving me which what my parent had been doing the past 19 years for 1 day, and here i am... missing her crazily like no one's bizz jus a day not chatting wif her... this is TOTALLY insane... why am i like this??!?! i'm... i'm sooooo independent all in school~!! i've been so used to isolation since sec sch years... and now i needed this... this magical presence of a normal lady? gosh what the hell is going on... this is.. oh gosh.. here comes her msg~!!! darn.... see what i mean?! ONE MESSAGE COULD MAKE ME JUMP WITH JOY!!!
total crapness... totally in love... does she knows exactly how much i loved her? this... is totally insane... seriously...
and can u believe it? the whole day long, i cant recall what happened in school~ in the back of my mind, her images still swirl~ every min every second... that's the only explanation i can come up wif if u asked "Is there anything else happening besides her?"
I'm sooo in love~ please~ god or goddess of whoever~ anyone up there!! bless us... do not let her go to someone else's heart~ name anything!!! anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!